Still in da funk...but getting better

7 straight days of rain,
had to delete my current posting
because of technical problems,
feel like shit-
but I think
I'm getting better,
had to up my meds.

da funk

Oh no,
I'm in da funk
again.

I feel my life

has become

a pathetic parody to which I am only a

minor
participant.

orchestrated by

...others

and I'm not right.

I AM BEYOND HELP.

"AARRGG!" I scream out loud

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The children turn away

from the TV

and look toward

their mother

as if to ask

with unspoken words:

What is the matter with Daddy?

She puts down

her magazine and

turns to me

in concerned exasperation

(as if thinking, here we go again)

and asks:

"Honey, what is the matter with you now?

Is everything all right?"

Her voice vibrates in

my skull like

a steel balls

downward spiral

in a

metal funnel.

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I think;

"No,

I am not all right..."

I am angry...

I am shackled

by my own

aspirations;

and sometimes I loose it,

have lost it,

too easy,

my rant. (Blogger talk)

Sob;

Anyway,

I tell her;

I don't feel like talking anymore.

I am bored with the sound

of my own voice

and am going

to bed.

Idiom in fatuation

Neither fish, nor flesh, nor good red herring.

.

I am enthralled,

and she has captivated me

completely.

*

And I am as weak as a kitten.

But I will rise

to the occasion,

and I will be on

the up and up.

Like nobody's business.

................************.............

She comes to me

.

.

on the wings of an angel.

Reveals herself through

the drunken haze

of a dream.

That suggests
to me that
things

aren't what

they seem.

..................
Neither hide

nor hair,

and
like a hen on

hot griddle &
mad as a
hatter.

But, there's more to it
than meets the eye.

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Do we see eye to eye?

Do I place her on a pedestal?

Or do I fly in the face

of love?
. .

I do think
she is one
in a million.
so for all intents
and purposes,
I will stay
for I do know
my own mind
and boast
of willpower.

...and I stay
because she
is
a mystery to me.

Poly doesn't wear Prada.

It's as if
what you wear
defines
who you are.

While

the whole world

is a stage

and you are

the actor

on your debut.

*

*

Stepping out

of the shadows

in designer clothes

and trendy jewelry.

* * * * * * * ^
Are you influenced

by the hype around you?

Do you make

a big splash,

a fashion sense statement

like a red carpet mannequin?

In a world gone

fashion crazy.

Are you influenced by

the multicultural

glamour designing

gurus and image makers?

...and do you care?

Repression

It is a place that fascinates us from an early age.

and remains with us most of our life.

It is a place so intense that we are often ruled by it.

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We call ourselves free, except when it comes to sexual matters.

There, we are greatly restricted.

Schools that should be teaching sex education buckle under pressure from

concerned citizen groups.

.

.

Even in the privacy of our own homes,

we are watched under suspicious eyes.

.

.

.

.

and TV & Radio producers are fined and pressured

as to the content of their shows if it is considered too racy for sensitive

moral-minded American audiences.

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*

*

*

Many medical professionals, doctors, physiological, and philosophers

extol the benefits of sexual liberation

and its benefits to society.

They are often defamed

and defunct by political and religious zealot leaders

on the grounds of morality and

family values.

.

.

.

As a result of sexual repression, our society experiences

an increase of frustration, stress and

emotional instability.

And we hear of numerous violent sex crimes

committed by perps and pervs as a result of intense and

long term suppression of sexual desires.

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Some studies have shown a decrease of such crimes

as much as 50% by societies who have legalized

pornography or other forms of sexual gratification.

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'

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So, why are we so pent up?

...and the angels weep.

Frightened beyond recognition.

Tears well in panic-strained eyes
as planes roar overhead

dropping thunderous deadly cargo.

Blinding flashes strobe-light the eerie blackened horizon

Burning wasteland.
godless pay dirt.

They are the warmongers

and the bearers of hell.


This is their recipe for victory.

Cry for all humanity

and the waste of life- not so precious

that they take it as their birthright
to annihilate

at will.

A letter to George

"Hey George, Have you found Bin Laden yet?

Boy, we are in one fine mess-

A quagmire, it seems.

We can't stay and

we can't go.

and we are up to our ears

in shit.

Iraq is a shooting gallery,

and now we are caught

in a civil war.

...and we must fight.

...and there is nowhere to run.

...and the bodies keep piling up.

What to do...

What to do...

Afghanistan, Iran, Somalia, North Korea...

Such world class problems, with no clear-cut answers.

Oh George, How kind will history be toward you?

You are so distracted by world politics

you forgot about us.

We are being overrun by illegal immigrants,

raped by your friends in big oil,

having our jobs exported,

while our seniors go homeless,

our young unable to afford a home,

and we are all taxed to death.

"You know, I don't like to get political, but you forced my hand...

I pity those who voted for you and your cronies, for you have let them down. I, on the other hand, never had high hopes for you and sad to say, got what I expected.

Is there now no one in politics to oppose you and your delusional sheltered frat-boy rich-boy cow-boy view of the real world and the dangers we face? Will no one come forward?"

In God we trust,

help us in our hour of need.

Sea Food

"Can I turn around now?"

The struggle in my mind ( my promise)

It's all an Illusion.

What is real and
what is not,
and all the spaces
in between,
in shades of gray and
black and white and
oh, there I go again.
I need to take something
to bring me back
to reality.
My mind is in
a bad place.


I long for diversion and excitement.

"I fear I have grown stagnant,"

he said, eyeing the thick rope draped across the chair

and then the overhead beam.

He took a long toke of the joint and exhaled slowly.

There was a time when you would dance before me

naked

with your long hair shimmering

in the moonlight and

I would take you in my arms and

kiss your lips so gently.

So young, sweet innocent eyes trusting my words...

my intentions, my promise;

"How I love you,"

...and you gave yourself to me totally
willingly.

I have never betrayed that trust.

...and yet,
from time to time
a passing thought
a fanciful fantasy causes me
to struggle with questions
of right and wrong,

and the temptations that besiege me.

because I am a man
and I will not yield.

Nor will I harm you

or myself,
nor damage what

we have built together,
for 20 years

for a whim.

Life's a beach

Nobody's perfect,

but why do we have to be subjected to it?

It is what they dangle in front of us in place of happiness.

Poly in the sky, with donuts-

Where is meaning?

HEADLESS BEHIND A GLASS

i am pure thought,
turned
toward you.

I miss you all...your all in my thoughts
xxx

Sorry, my friends I will be away for a while...take care.

For The Love of Money.

The heart of
all good,
and evil
that makes the world
go round,
and round

Like a dog
chasing
it's tail.
It is what
drives us
to do
what we do;

good or bad.

...and we can never

seem to get enough of it!

"Psssst! ...What if someday,

in the near future, we
run out of our bling? "

What will we do

when we're all
dried up?
resources all
gone...

and depression sets in?

But, humans truly are such a cool people...

In spite of lying cheating stealing

raping and murdering each other for
capital gains
and religious beliefs,

we truly are a benolevent species...

"Hey Poly- How's it hanging...? "


"Ah, GO FUCK YOURSELF!! "

We never learn,
do we?...

...BUT YET WE Strive
for something...
anything...
to say
we've been here..

Pssssst,
Poly's been here- X