A day at the office. (1995)

I would rather be
a big fish
in a small pond;
dog fish, dogfood,
dog eat dog.

My eyes tear when I sleep.
When I sleep I dream
the dreams of man;
Fucked up dreams-
fucked up life.


I want things I cannot have.
I dream of them with wet eyes
and wake up tired
of everything
except you.

My head is on fire,
my heart is cold.
with the pain
of my own affliction.
I'll die
naked someday

Right now,
I live for profit at
any cost,
I lie through my teeth;
I may be lying
now.
I am too flustered
to know the difference.

I'll sell anything
for money.
and I long
desperately for things
to make me happy;
You make me happy-
I can not buy you.

I sit all day
and watch the clock
tic and tock.
I grow older
and more resentful
with each
passing
day.

The boss sits
in the back of the room,
watching and despising
all around her;
and the company
she founded
on a shoestring budget
eats at her humanity.
She wishes it would
all go away.

and I know
I must now
push on
and leave
that tangled mass
of twisted rafters
and burning bridges
behind.